Sometimes your own self is sufficient for your needs. Or should I say nothing catches your interests any longer! Everything looses its charm. This world no longer seems to be your abode and isn't that true? It really isn't our abode or at least not the eternal one. Then why care for it? 
   Only if we realize and start the divine journey; will we really succeed. Our will be enlightened with Noor and never will we wander aimlessly in the dark!

   We humans are never thankful. No matter how much life has given us we always want more. Our desires never seem to be satisfied.

   When we are sad we long for happiness but sometimes while longing we miss all the happiness around us. Why are we - or should i say "I" so intent on being miserable.. =/ I should be content on what I have rather then dwell on what I want and can't get.
   So I have a paper on Saturday, English advance, for which I haven't prepared yet and I really don't have much time left.. but this is one subject I totally hate. Infact if I'm honest with myself I hate BA, I hate my college.. and maybe some other things too but why should I tell you =/

   Just pray for me guys! I was gonna write something else but this is what I ended up writing. And yeah! I'm really missing doing poetry and writing proper, long posts.. But for that you need something to write about and nowadays there is nothing going on in my life. It has come to a temporary stop. Hope it will start again soon =)

   My eyes opened to this rumbling sound. At first I didn't understand what it was then I felt the bed shaking but I really thought I was just running away with my imagination! I thought of waking sis up to confirm if it was real or not. But then I decided it didn't matter :O So what if its an earthquake? I might die, well big deal huh. Who cares. I'm really one mad girl. I'm so fascinated by death =/ I must be psychic.

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler,long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;

Then took the tother, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,

And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I -
I took the one less traveled by
And that has made all the difference.

                     -  Robert Frost

As I wait the lights fade,
darkness creeps over
time evades..
and yet there is no sign
of your long awaited return!

Your memories are still bright
the wounds still fresh
some hope still left
that you will be back...

The breeze ruffles my hair
the sun washes me in its light
the warmness of the day welcomes me
the flowers sing and the leaves dance
a aroma so sweet fills the vicinity

Blah blah blah.... :D

   It's just to show that I'm happy  but not in the mood of writing :P I have a paper on Saturday and I haven't started studying and guess what! I'm not sure I have the notes for all the questions I plan to learn and we don't have any course books so... now what?? I won't study! Simple :P hahaha. Kidding. I will insha'Allah in the evening. Pray for me all of you will you? Thank you :)

   And oh yeah. M&M won't be there in this paper... dreading it... just a bit... I don't really care. No, I mean of course I care about you M&M, what I meant was I'm not scared of being alone =/ I can face people on my own oh yes I can. huh :P

   And I'm thinking of changing my link maybe.. Will let you guys know if I do :) Bye

   Will you ever let me live in peace. Please stop making life hell. Please... I don't even have any anger left.. I'm feeling so... so dead.. helpless.. i have no strength left to argue, or to keep up with you... I feel finished.. used up now. I won't ask you to leave again..

   I think it's high time I left this world too.. the online world... I'm really at a loss.. I've never felt like this while writing.. I'm writing as if some really ill person.. one who is on his death bed is writing his last words... who knows maybe they really are...

   Well.. Allah hafiz..

   God! I'm getting so insufferable :O I'd better stay away.. Something provoke me and now I'm taking it out on the wrong people. Sick of myself... :(:( I'm sorry... Damn.. Ah! SORRY....

   Only if you learn to be contented you'll be happy. Be glad at whatever you had and treasure those memories of what you had as a means to happiness. Never let anything get to you. You have so many reasons to be happy then why ponder on the sad ones? It's senseless to do that. So guess what! I have no hard feelings. I'm happy for everything that was and that is.You are great and it will remain so. Thanks for when you were there and thanks for tolerating me now.

   Thank you for giving me such a nice friend and making me a bit strong :)

   Maybe a confused individual has no right to complain, after all you yourself give reasons to people to say or act the way they do. Anyone can control your life because you let them, you never take a stand, HELL with you.. :@ You deserve this.








  
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