M&M gave me this idea to write about how I became friends with her. So now I'm thinking of sharing this disaster with you guys :P

  Here is where it begins. I was new in school. The first memory I have of M&M is when we were in 4th grade I think. We were having our maths paper and she was sitting with me and she helped me :P She used to give me motia flowers sometimes:-) ......

   I really liked her but was shy so we never talked much. in 6th or 7th  grade we sat together for a few days and since my Urdu wasn't good and my Urdu hand writing was even worse, I remember she would have me write the whole alphabets again and again. She has a big hand in improving my Urdu writing :P thnx :)

   Time passed and we started 8th grade. She sat right behind me, I wanted to sit with her but some other friend of her's took the seat next to her. Sigh... But then guess what!! One day they had a fight and M&M asked me to exchange seats with this friend of her's . Man was I happy!!!!!!! :-) :-) :-) So this was the beginning of our friendship.

   She was really caring towards me and I was still shy around her but we became good friends. We would talk all day long. The teachers got sick of us. LOL :-D But that didn't make us stop. We were known as " Laila Majnoon" in school :D God I had forgotten this. It was fun.

   Now I'm getting things mixed up cause there is so much to write!! I think I'll have to do this in parts Lol. :-P
Recalling these memories is too much for me. God!!! Okay I think I should take it easy. Just the beginning is enough for one day. For more details wait for my next post :-P

  Till then, take care :-)

  What should I write today? There isn't anything special. It was the same as usual. House chores, getting bored and yeah playing with the cute animals down there. Thinking about mehndi.. but I'm not feeling excited. I guess I'll just apply it on my sis and cousin's hand not my own.

   I have to go tomorrow to my nani's. Hope it's fun :-). I really don't know what to say. I was thinking of making a podcast but maybe some other time. Well I guess that's all. Allah hafiz :-)

   I haven't been writing regularly. Sorry for that but errr.. I dunno :-P I'll try to be regular :-) Today was sooO boring really I haven't been this bored in the past few centuries I think :-D I was mostly on the net doing noting and just sitting and did some house chores.

   Dad and uncle had gone to the mandi and now a big fat bull is waiting to be fed. I wasn't really interested in seeing it but then I when I did I fell in love with it's eyes, Lol !!! I got so transfixed that I forgot I had to go back upstairs and as I result I got locked down :-D Then later when mum realized I wasn't in the house she sent sis and so I came back up.

  I was just looking from the window right now at my lonely bull and you know what I'm feeling sad for it. I want to go down and give it company I don't want it to be sad but mum isn't letting me go cause its late now. You know his eyes were so sad.... :-( and now I'm feeling sad. I wanna go hug it and bring a spark of happiness in those eyes.. am I sounding crazy? I think I am.. but then how else will a person like me sound :-D

   Ok I'm going now. Cheer up my dear bull. I'll come as soon as i can :-) Till then take care. Love.

 



    I have been wanting to write this post since two days but... but I don't know what :P Anyways I'm writing now so.. :-P

   It was Wednesday, a big day for me and M&M. We had been planning it for days and yet were scared.. what if things didn't go the way we planned?? But we needn't worry cause everything went great! :-) We had made this poster saying " YOU ARE REALLY SPECIAL". After finding a nice place we tapped it to a tree and people were staring at us like we were crazy :-P that was a bit embarrassing but it was worth it!! When Winsome came she was so happy or should I say beyond herself :-D. She didn't know M&M would be there and it was a huge surprise for her, very shocking. We were all in fits of laughter , it was such a good day. We sat on the grass and talked then we attended a seminar but slipped out mid way through :-P We ate a lot too:-D It was really fun!! And yeah Winsome gave me a gift too :-) everything i like :-D


   Then it was time to go. M&M came home with me and stayed till 5:30 or something. Though we were really tired we still talked. It was the best day I've had in a long time. Thanks to Allah that our plan was successful :-) Hope to have another such day soon Insha'Allah.

   I haven't been able to do justice to the memory of that day but... Whatever :-P

   *SMILES*   :-)

Down come the leaves
leaving the trees bare,
covering the ground
with a blanket of colors;
rusted and fading
like life itself...

Leaving memories of what was,
or a yearning
of what might have been.

And I walk on the leaves
with rustles all around,
remembering what lies beneath;
hidden now from the eye
but still in the heart
green...

I crumple the leaves
trying in vain to grasp beneath.
But what i see is just a grave
and all in it is no longer
within my reach..

And I sigh
for that is all I can do...
and I travel again
on the rusting road
in hope to find
the colors of life...

   I had a good start today and I was really feeling high :-) But can't this feeling ever last? Do I have to be in despair as the day comes to an end?? Why?? I just can't understand, I'm trying so hard not to let this get to me but... *sigh*

   I'm sighing all the time now. And right now I'm hating everything... everyone... no one cares... but of course everyone has a world of their own. I don't own them, then what right do I have to object?? None right!!! I know I know.... Okay I'm sorry.....

  Not angry at anyone but just myself....

  I haven't been writing for a few days... I just couldn't bring myself to say anything though there was so much to say.. but... This "but" makes all the difference in the world...

  I was just browsing the net when I came across a quote.